8 mile - a shocking revelation

8 Mile
A semi biography of Eminem. Yesterday started to watch this movie, saw till the point in the movie where B-Rabbit played Eminem gets intimidated by the crowd and doesnt say a word in that rap-something-competition. The movie was a bit slow and the rap thing was tough for me to understand (was barely able to catch a few words), so i switched off the TV. But, curiosity got better hold of me and so switched on the movie again after about 1:30 hrs or so (dont remember).. but the movie was almost over.

Must say that it was a shocking revelation to me. Hadnt imagined that people have to face these kinds of hardships too. God! Now, when i tried listening to eminem again (with lyrics), it shocked me to depths unimaginable (okay, I cant listen to his songs, they have too much of frustration in them.. its a bit tough to tolerate). But the calm look can hold this much of hurt and frustration, i never imagined. It sure was a shocking revelation.

* I guess that i should cut down my intake of rock songs, its having a funny impact on me. :)

Shruti

Blogosphere

Blogosphere is turning Grey!

Its an article which came in "The Hindu" which says that the senior citizens have stepped into the world of Blogging. The article says that the elderly people enjoy reading blogs and can afford to do so because they have plenty of time in their hands unlike 'young' people who barely find time. The blogs they own is their experiences, their life, documented in the form of posts or some of the bloggers are more sophisticated and maintain video blogs.

What i really find tickling in the article, is that, 'young' people have blogs which is more of 'me me and me'. It almost made me laugh (me again? hehe).

Anyways, Its really nice to know that the Elderly also enjoy what Internet has to offer.

Shruti

Nothing to say...

One Step Closer

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Somewhere I Belong

i wanna heal..
i wanna feel..
like im close to something real
i wanna find something i've wanted all along
Somewhere i belong
.
.
.
.
i will never be anything till i break away from me
i will break away
i'll find myself today

Outside

All the times
That I felt insecure
.
.
And I leave
My burdens at the door

Numb

i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
every step that i take is another mistake to you

i've
become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

every step that i take is another mistake to you
and every second i waste is more than i can take
but i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you
i've become so numb

Easier to Run

Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back

Its Easier to Run... It’s so much easier to go...

Shruti

Know not

I know not so many things, there are just soo many that i keep on clicking links, browsing through lots of papers, reading lots of stuff, and finally knowing nothing.

Am i cribbing?
Yes!
Can i stop cribbing?
Yes!
But then what about the 'Knowing not' stuff? Shruti, you still know not many things.
Yes! That's why my mouse is getting 'clicked' by me at a faster rate..!
But I thought that finally you know Nothing!
Yeah.. So what? Reading is fun and i am ready to drop the 'knowing' part for the 'fun' part!

Clicking the mouse away..
--Shruti

Gone but not actually...

Yesterday
Its a cold night..

Darker gets the night,
as i think of tomorrow

'Starier' gets the night,
as i think of yesterday

(didnt complete the post yest 'cuz was sleepy)

Today
i am already awake. It was around 4:30 am when my eyes opened. I laid awake on my bed. Thinking...

Everything was so quiet then.. and now it still is.. for everyone is asleep in the house. At 5 am i got up, switched on the comp, signed in to blogspot and now here i am jotting down this post! Why am i awake? Is it the compree tension? No.. its already over and tests never got me tensed till now.. The truth is that i am scared. Why scared? Scared because am getting closer and closer to what is called 'independence' in this world. Scared because i am scared of facing this fact. Scared because i DONT know what to do!

I've been a very pampered child. And whatever i wished for, most of them got fulfilled just like that. It was all so easy that i hadnt realised that actually it is as tough as i thought it was easy. As i now realise it, it scares me more.

And now suddenly i realise..
one more sem is gone

But hey.. on the brighter side, i have full half more of BITSIAN life to know what i want! I neednt be scared. World.. I will be ready to face you in a few years!

Oh well.. Lets see what happens!

--Shruti (smiling)

Assorted

Happy Painting your path! Because this is what makes life exciting and this is what describes the journey undertaken.

I was WRONG
Even though i like Madonna's "La Isla Bonita" better than Alizee's, it's "Heart Shaped Box" covered by Amy lee that i find more beautiful than Nirvana. Oh no no no.. Kurt Cobain was a great great singer! I love his voice. But for "Heart Shaped Box", Amy Lee is absolutely fantastic. She anyways is a fantastic singer.
Well, Whole in Whole, Evanescence and Nirvana are my fav bands these days.

Lord of the rings - The Return of the King! Wow! I've seen like just 1:30 hrs of the movie, and am totally smitten by beauty of the language (Tolkein was great, no doubt) and the direction. Ian McKellen always and always stuns me by his extraordinary convincing ability, be it as Magneto (X-men) or as Gandalf. He is so great! And yeah! Arwein (hopefully the spelling's correct.. i dont know her real name), she looks so stunning in the scene just before she sees a snapshot of future, wherein she sees her son. And the scene that follows is even more breathtaking. I just love these words:
"From the ashes, a fire shall be woken;
A light, from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be the blade that was broken;
The crownless, again shall be the king."

Wow! I wanna watch the triology but sadly dont have the first two parts. Anyways, The Return of the King is absolutely fantastic!

Okay, I better start ghoting now!

*Yeah! Aragon is great too!

--Shruti

Comprees!

My nose is so cold.. so numb.. cant even feel its existence.. hey wait! My palms are freaking cold too.. so numb.. cant even feel their existence..
Damn.. Comprees! Sure can make one SENSE-LESS! ;)

Freezing away
--Shruti (brrr)