[Mr. Winter]
"Here I come again!"
The tingling cold, accompanied by soft delicate sunlight in the afternoons, goldening the trees and the mud, has arrived yet again.
The gentle flowing breeze, attracting the weightless leaves in its direction of flow, touches past the houses, he so very much is familiar with. The breeze continues to flow.. Sometimes violent, sometimes gentle, sometimes playful and sometimes Still. But still, he continues to flow. The lonely but the cheerful wanderer, greeting everyone on his way, never once in his life, gets sorrowed by an unrecieved positive human response. He continues to flow, motivated by the subtle melodious songs, the rustling leaves sing for him, as he touches past them. He, the flowing breeze, continues to flow.. as cheerful as ever.. leaving behind him, the songs of his existance...
The green goldening leaf, bidding goodbye to the flowing breeze, welcomes the delicate yellow with an equal enthusiam, letting her sit on its lap and enjoying the delicate warmth she gives to it. The delicate yellow.. the beautiful golden.. How much warmth you carry! She, the delicate sunlight, continues to come in the afternoon, spreading her warmth.. leaving behind her, her golden warm glow which is reciprocated by the genuine smiles...
The tingling cold, accompanied by soft delicate sunlight in the afternoons, goldening the trees and the mud, has arrived yet again.
I, the pilani winter, would just say "Here I come again!"
Regards,
Mr. Winter
[Me]
Just read this letter by you Mr. Winter. And would love to spend a few months with you. Hoping for a wonderful december winter. I whole heartedly welcome you with gloved hands, Mr. Winter! Happy Staying.
Regards,
Shruti
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Sunday, November 26, 2006
A.W.E.S.O.M.E
Time: 12:00 am, Day: Someday during OASIS 2006 :
"Did you ever go cycling with your hair open so that it flutters against the wind?"
I said no.
"Believe me, its awesome"
I believed.
A Few Days back :
..tried it.
Now would say :
..Believe me (her), it really is.. A.W.E.S.O.M.E!
"Did you ever go cycling with your hair open so that it flutters against the wind?"
I said no.
"Believe me, its awesome"
I believed.
A Few Days back :
..tried it.
Now would say :
..Believe me (her), it really is.. A.W.E.S.O.M.E!
Friday, November 24, 2006
LOST LOST LOST!
Amusing!
Looking back at the previous posts, makes me wonder, ponder, laugh and leaves me stunned. Everything of the past simply seems lost in the past. But that's what makes it even more amusing. It just seems like ages to have had those thoughts.
Recently saw an interview of 'Rekha' - the stunning bollywood actress in 'Rendevouz with Simi Garewal'. She is a very elegant lady having enigmatic grace to her persona (according to me). Well, she told many things and I am going to type down just a few of them. She, who had entered Bollywood at an age of 13 (just a teenager!) mainly because of financial reasons, found herself LOST in Mumbai (Bombay actually). She afterall was just a small kid at that time and her busy acting schedule stole her time of being a normal teenager which left her frustrated at the end of the day. Adding onto that, her mom wasnt there with her and she missed her like hell. Not only that! Men were making passes on her.. on a 13 year old young lady! When Simi put before her, her childhood, Rekha said something like this - "Simi, I was young at that time, my mom wasnt with me and I had my family to support. So at that time, I might have felt that way. But now, I dont have any regrets.. I am happy that I entered bollywood."
I so very much agree! When I look back at me now, I dont see any regrets which were there when I was living them. I'd been frustrated many times due to some thing or the other.. but now, I feel happy that they happened. Happy because, they made me learn, get an experience and set me free! Free, for am no longer shackled to those haunting thoughts. Now there are no regrets and everything I labelled "unfair" before is lost in the past. I smile at myself now!
Looking back at the previous posts, makes me wonder, ponder, laugh and leaves me stunned. Everything of the past simply seems lost in the past. But that's what makes it even more amusing. It just seems like ages to have had those thoughts :
LOST LOST LOST - 1
LOST LOST LOST - 2
LOST LOST LOST - 3
LOST LOST LOST - 4
LOST LOST LOST - 5
LOST LOST LOST - 6
LOST LOST LOST - 7
Maybe I am a bit too melodramic - hehe. But hell! Who cares? After all, ultimately what matters is, how comfortable you are, with your self. Nothing else matters!
--Shruti
Looking back at the previous posts, makes me wonder, ponder, laugh and leaves me stunned. Everything of the past simply seems lost in the past. But that's what makes it even more amusing. It just seems like ages to have had those thoughts.
Recently saw an interview of 'Rekha' - the stunning bollywood actress in 'Rendevouz with Simi Garewal'. She is a very elegant lady having enigmatic grace to her persona (according to me). Well, she told many things and I am going to type down just a few of them. She, who had entered Bollywood at an age of 13 (just a teenager!) mainly because of financial reasons, found herself LOST in Mumbai (Bombay actually). She afterall was just a small kid at that time and her busy acting schedule stole her time of being a normal teenager which left her frustrated at the end of the day. Adding onto that, her mom wasnt there with her and she missed her like hell. Not only that! Men were making passes on her.. on a 13 year old young lady! When Simi put before her, her childhood, Rekha said something like this - "Simi, I was young at that time, my mom wasnt with me and I had my family to support. So at that time, I might have felt that way. But now, I dont have any regrets.. I am happy that I entered bollywood."
I so very much agree! When I look back at me now, I dont see any regrets which were there when I was living them. I'd been frustrated many times due to some thing or the other.. but now, I feel happy that they happened. Happy because, they made me learn, get an experience and set me free! Free, for am no longer shackled to those haunting thoughts. Now there are no regrets and everything I labelled "unfair" before is lost in the past. I smile at myself now!
Looking back at the previous posts, makes me wonder, ponder, laugh and leaves me stunned. Everything of the past simply seems lost in the past. But that's what makes it even more amusing. It just seems like ages to have had those thoughts :
LOST LOST LOST - 1
LOST LOST LOST - 2
LOST LOST LOST - 3
LOST LOST LOST - 4
LOST LOST LOST - 5
LOST LOST LOST - 6
LOST LOST LOST - 7
Maybe I am a bit too melodramic - hehe. But hell! Who cares? After all, ultimately what matters is, how comfortable you are, with your self. Nothing else matters!
--Shruti
Monday, November 06, 2006
May Baby!
This is a mail that is pretty frequent and repetitive! Well, mysely, being a 'May' baby, am supposed to be having the following qualities (according to the mail) - How much do I agree?
*Stubborn and hard-hearted. - Yes
*Strong-willed and highly motivated. - Guess so
*Sharp thoughts. - I hope so
*Easily angered. - Very
*Attracts others and loves attention. - Dont think so
*Deep feelings. - Yeah
*Beautiful physically and mentally. - Would love to belive that
*Firm Standpoint. - Yes
*Needs no motivation. - Not exactly
*Shy towards opposite sex. - Yes
*Easily consoled. - Yes
*Systematic (left brain). - Yeah
*Loves to dream. - Very
*Strong clairvoyance. - Would love to believe that
*Understanding. - Yeah!
*Sickness usually in the ear and neck. - Wow, Yes!
*Good imagination. - Hehe, Maybe
*Good physical. Maybe (?)
*Weak breathing. - 100%
*Loves literature and the arts. - Very
*Loves traveling. - Love to see people and places
*Dislike being at home. - Yes
*Restless. - Very
*Not having many children. - Actually None!
*Hardworking. - No
*High-spirited. - Not exactly
If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days. - I wont and I dint! hehe
--Shruti
*Stubborn and hard-hearted. - Yes
*Strong-willed and highly motivated. - Guess so
*Sharp thoughts. - I hope so
*Easily angered. - Very
*Attracts others and loves attention. - Dont think so
*Deep feelings. - Yeah
*Beautiful physically and mentally. - Would love to belive that
*Firm Standpoint. - Yes
*Needs no motivation. - Not exactly
*Shy towards opposite sex. - Yes
*Easily consoled. - Yes
*Systematic (left brain). - Yeah
*Loves to dream. - Very
*Strong clairvoyance. - Would love to believe that
*Understanding. - Yeah!
*Sickness usually in the ear and neck. - Wow, Yes!
*Good imagination. - Hehe, Maybe
*Good physical. Maybe (?)
*Weak breathing. - 100%
*Loves literature and the arts. - Very
*Loves traveling. - Love to see people and places
*Dislike being at home. - Yes
*Restless. - Very
*Not having many children. - Actually None!
*Hardworking. - No
*High-spirited. - Not exactly
If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days. - I wont and I dint! hehe
--Shruti
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Wants
I want to live life
When was the last time I actually felt good about myself? God.. I dont even remember!
All the time, My eyes see me through my failures making me believe that, "Yes.. my incapablities are larger in number than my capabalities". So what? Maybe I am incapable when it comes to things that are beyond my comprehension. Does that make me an incapable person? No! I maybe be better at other things. So what, If I am bad in some things? I want to feel good about myself.
'Why dint I think of it before' is a question of no consequence because its a thing of past and living in past is of no help (as they say 'live in your present' and 'learn from the past'). Ever since I came know that I can think, I idealised everything, because idealisation was always easier to understand and made more sense. But what was the result? I got lost in those idealisations trying to link them with the real world. Always wanted things to be predictable and work how I want them to. But the real world is much more beautiful without these idealisations.. Its much more than these idealisations.. I want to chuck those idealisations.
Its been so long since I've been wanting to go back in past (PS I actually) where I thought I was much more productive. Why had I been wanting to go back? Because I miss the self-dependence, the independence, the beautiful nature... blah blah blah.. Why? Why cant I be productive here? Why cant I be self-dependent here? Its simply that I've been living with the excuses that reside in me as truths. Are these the truths? Yes- If I believe that and No- If I overcome them. I want to overcome them.
Its been so long since I've been thinking about Reality, Changes, Perception, Pretense.... Why? Why do I need to think about them? Why create more idealisations? My mom always says "Shruti, Why do you think so much, Be more Practical".. Maybe I really am not practical! My mom is so inspiring. She is so so simple, so tension-free, so calm, so serene.. the reason which she gave me was "I take things as they come.. I dont think much". I dint believe her then (I actually thought 'how is that possible?') but now I do. She is much more a happier person this way. I want to be happy.
Reality.. Thought about it a lot.. but was never able to comprehend the complexities that make Reality. Why again, Why do I want to understand it? Why cant I just accept things? Of course, I can. But choose not to. Why would I want to prefer Complexities over Simplicity? I dont.. But this precisely what I have been doing! I want to be Simple and be a believer of Simplicity.
Well, till the time my mind again gets any more strange ideas, I want to believe in the Reality my five senses (+ the sixth sense - intution) perceive. Yes, This set of senses may be the same for every living thing on earth but the experience created is very different. This doesnt mean that these experiences are illusions. They are as real as the belief that "I" exist. Reality is an integration of my reality, your reality, bruno's reality, a snake's reality and the reality of every thing living and non-living. We are really lucky to be able to see reality everyday, every instant. So what, if its incomplete? (Its incomplete because I'm not IR sensitive - a snake's reality) Its incomplete.. but its not an illusion. (Illusion - This is what I thought first.. but i dont believe that anymore because I am happier without this belief). I want to believe in Reality.
I want to live life the way my 5 senses want me to live. I want to live in the real world. I want to live the life of Present Shruti and not of the Past Shruti. I want to love me. I want to free myself from the self imposed constraints. I want to live in Reality.. in the Real Reality.
I want to live life.
--Shruti
When was the last time I actually felt good about myself? God.. I dont even remember!
All the time, My eyes see me through my failures making me believe that, "Yes.. my incapablities are larger in number than my capabalities". So what? Maybe I am incapable when it comes to things that are beyond my comprehension. Does that make me an incapable person? No! I maybe be better at other things. So what, If I am bad in some things? I want to feel good about myself.
'Why dint I think of it before' is a question of no consequence because its a thing of past and living in past is of no help (as they say 'live in your present' and 'learn from the past'). Ever since I came know that I can think, I idealised everything, because idealisation was always easier to understand and made more sense. But what was the result? I got lost in those idealisations trying to link them with the real world. Always wanted things to be predictable and work how I want them to. But the real world is much more beautiful without these idealisations.. Its much more than these idealisations.. I want to chuck those idealisations.
Its been so long since I've been wanting to go back in past (PS I actually) where I thought I was much more productive. Why had I been wanting to go back? Because I miss the self-dependence, the independence, the beautiful nature... blah blah blah.. Why? Why cant I be productive here? Why cant I be self-dependent here? Its simply that I've been living with the excuses that reside in me as truths. Are these the truths? Yes- If I believe that and No- If I overcome them. I want to overcome them.
Its been so long since I've been thinking about Reality, Changes, Perception, Pretense.... Why? Why do I need to think about them? Why create more idealisations? My mom always says "Shruti, Why do you think so much, Be more Practical".. Maybe I really am not practical! My mom is so inspiring. She is so so simple, so tension-free, so calm, so serene.. the reason which she gave me was "I take things as they come.. I dont think much". I dint believe her then (I actually thought 'how is that possible?') but now I do. She is much more a happier person this way. I want to be happy.
Reality.. Thought about it a lot.. but was never able to comprehend the complexities that make Reality. Why again, Why do I want to understand it? Why cant I just accept things? Of course, I can. But choose not to. Why would I want to prefer Complexities over Simplicity? I dont.. But this precisely what I have been doing! I want to be Simple and be a believer of Simplicity.
Well, till the time my mind again gets any more strange ideas, I want to believe in the Reality my five senses (+ the sixth sense - intution) perceive. Yes, This set of senses may be the same for every living thing on earth but the experience created is very different. This doesnt mean that these experiences are illusions. They are as real as the belief that "I" exist. Reality is an integration of my reality, your reality, bruno's reality, a snake's reality and the reality of every thing living and non-living. We are really lucky to be able to see reality everyday, every instant. So what, if its incomplete? (Its incomplete because I'm not IR sensitive - a snake's reality) Its incomplete.. but its not an illusion. (Illusion - This is what I thought first.. but i dont believe that anymore because I am happier without this belief). I want to believe in Reality.
I want to live life the way my 5 senses want me to live. I want to live in the real world. I want to live the life of Present Shruti and not of the Past Shruti. I want to love me. I want to free myself from the self imposed constraints. I want to live in Reality.. in the Real Reality.
I want to live life.
--Shruti
Life
What is Life? What is Living?
What is Right? What is Wrong?
What is Joy? What is Sorrow?
What is Pain? What is Healing?
What is Toxic? What is Intoxicating?
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What is Correct? What are mistakes?
What is this? What is that?
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What is Death?
What is Life? What is Living?
Is it trying to find answers to the questions, while living them and living with them?
Is it choosing to ignore some questions, while living them and living with them?
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I do not know.. Do I wish to know?
--Shruti
What is Right? What is Wrong?
What is Joy? What is Sorrow?
What is Pain? What is Healing?
What is Toxic? What is Intoxicating?
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What is Correct? What are mistakes?
What is this? What is that?
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What is Death?
What is Life? What is Living?
Is it trying to find answers to the questions, while living them and living with them?
Is it choosing to ignore some questions, while living them and living with them?
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I do not know.. Do I wish to know?
--Shruti
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