!~ALIVE~!

life stares at her...
open eyed..
screamin... shoutin.. yellin at her...
givin her frozen stares..
shakin her hard... shatterin her to pieces...
takin her back... to THE future...


distorted visions of ruins...
come BACK 2 life...
forcin their existance on her...
n she succumbs...
succumbs to the forces unknown...
draggin her into a vague world...
only if it wasnt so opaque...


her mind wishes to run awaay..
away frm the awaitin vendetta...
waitin to tear her apart...
but she realises... shes already torn inside...
"please leave me alone....... please..."
but she realises.... shes already alone...
she hears a sharp cry....
something pierces her heart...
n she lets a hot tear trickle down her cheeek
burnin her soul...
squeezin life out of her n then she closes her eyes.......


life stares at her...
sendin spastic shivers down her spine
thrustin on her a vague world..
THE vague world.....
now only more translucent....
distorted visions of ruins beckon her....
enticing her closer....
closer n closer she gets....
clearer n clearer she seeees....
tormenting n torturin it gets....
her heart beats faster...
n anxiety drains life out of her...
she feels her knees wobblin...
n body liquifyin into nothingness...
she wants to pull back her life.....
she screams....
n she then opens her eyes.....


slowly n cautiiously music seeps into her bein....
she feels every instrument tingling her ears....
slowly words start drownin in her...
n she starts drownin in them.....
she smiles....
smiles at her first love.... music
her first love which never lets her down....
cradles her.. caresses her...
sweeps off her pains....
instills sanity in her....
instills life in her.....
she flows with the flow...
now radiatin with energy....
losin her soul again....
but now only willingly....
cherishin each word sinkin in her....
cherishin each keynote touchin her heart.....
she runs her fingers down the casio (keybord) keys...
n she knows shes alive...
n she knows she has a life...
a life worth livin......
n she puts on her usual dumb smily mask again....
smilin her life away............


--Shruti
3:30 pm
29th april 2006
**after spoiling the MT exm**

Goin thru the parallel blog always makes one nostalgic.. same is the case with me.. :).. Dinner time now...

--Shruti