Tuesday, June 27, 2006

SHRUTI and COMPUTERS?!!

!~** 27th of june **~!
What the heck is happening??? well.. while travellin in the bus along with a friend of mine, strange thoughts intercepted the already existing stranger thoughts that were playin around with my brain at that time.. i think i was analysing something.. was tryin to understang how complex the human beings are and how simple computers are.. computers.. gawd.. they have such a lot of power in them.. unimaginable.. but what about humans? they have something called brains installed in them which is the major cause of human misery.. computers (which are without brains) are considered so powerful.. then i reallly cant imagine the destruction that a human brain can cause to the beautiful world...


!~** today >> 30th of june**~!
neways, the moment has passed so have the thoughts associated with it at that time.. neways, talkin about computers really makes me wonder "how could i possibly be liking computers when they are one of the major instruments bein used for the destruction of this beautiful enchanting nature".. this is really strange.. this computer thing always found out strange ways to hook itself with me..
diving into the deep reservoir of my memory.............


  • After 10th class (b4 coming to 11th)...
    "no daddy.. i am interested in bio.. i wanna study biology [my desktop at that time had "meoisis" as background!! :O].. i dunt care if i do bad in it.. i am not marks crazy.." neways, after a lil persuasion i gave in and took "Informatics Practices".. slowly an slowly, i developed unbreakable love for IP [ "Informatics Practices" as well as "Image Processing" :)..].. i loved SQL.. and decided that programmin is really not that bad and really thanked dad for havin pushed me into computers cuz later on this realisation dawned on me that "computers are better than ghotting silly BIG non-pronounciable biological names".. neways, that course ended well without leaving any bitterness after its completion....
  • 2nd and 3rd semester...
    Our 1st sem dint have ne computer courses [its not as if i wanted to do computer courses.. infact i remeber, i dint actually want to do ne of them] ... still it was a pretty new environment and was really tough to cope up with the existing uneasiness and hence resulting in a bad CG (really shudnt blame circumstances/conditions fr my bad CG).. neways, 2nd sem had CP1.. it was fun.. [tho i dint make a good grade.. :(..]. and then came the 3rd sem which brought CP2 alon with itself.. it completely shatterd me.. it was a real bad experience that it really made me hate computers more [even though computers are interesting, research line interests me more and hence m somewht biased against programmng].. so this made me decide upon 1 thing >> "i HATE computers"
  • 4th semester...
    Though academically/emotionally, this was the worst semester of my life.. there was one thing which always kept givin motivation.. IP.. i dunno how the course went.. but one awesome thing that happened to me this sem is IP [image processing].. absolutely loved it.. maybe because it was one subject which gave me satisfaction.. satisfaction that i am doin this course because its interesting and not cause its a "hot cake" these days..
    this is the reason when "sathe sir" voiced out this word "Image Processing", my dadz neck turned and i got up, murmuring in a very faint voice that "we [myself and a friend] want to do this project".. neways, PS1 is almost ending and i dunno how to react.......
    "Time is almost up and goa's magnetism is just pulling me more and more towards its enchanting whirlpool.. i LOVE goa but just a countable few days are left :(.. i wish the days get longer and and i wake from THE dream and realise that its just 24th of may today.. :).."

neways, its dinner time now and the hunger cramps are gonna kill me...

signin off....
Shruti

Monday, June 26, 2006

HAPPY??!!

Coming back from bombay makes me sad... Why?? Is it because i came BACK frm mumbai?? hell no.. i am HAPPY that we returned.. happy to be back in a place where people understand the value of nature.. then why am i SAD? maybe because of the population of pollution that has exceeded the population of the living oraganisms in there (its worth mentionin that mumbai coinincidently [maa kasam, its coincidental.. ;).. ] happens to be CROWNED as the possesor of one of the "RICHLY POPULATED" areas... ahaan.. quite an eye catchy title!! bravo!! shucks.. bad..) .. its really a pity.. god!! its really polluted like anything.. so damn polluted that we'll have to stare at a particular area real hard (yeah.. we can call that meditation) real long so as to vaguely spot something lookin somewht brown and unfortunately known as mud.. yeah.. all we can see is humps and humps of garbage dumped along the railway lines (local railway lines).. its bad.. its pathetic..
Neways, people say that "Marine Drive" is an awesome place.. after all the "queen's necklace" clings onto its neck choking mumbai to death.. yeah.. thats right.. how would a 20 cm human being (width.. its absurd.. but no prolem in assumption!!) feel if he is squeezed to fit into 10 cm space?? OB hez gonna hate it.. then why the bloody hell are we strangling mumbai's pretty neck?? WHY??? WE are really so damn bad.. bad.. the poor violent waves splashin across the the walls tellin us that they need more space.. more space to breathe and wht do we do??? we say.. "okay sweetheart.. even we need space.. sup.. please bear with us and let us exploit you more" [they are goin deeper into the sea to cut off its veins.. goin for RA. i.e Reclaimed Area].. it hurts.. it really hurts to see people playin arnd with nature, modifying its real shape and murdering it brutally.. did i like marine drive? NO! the waves.. the waves.. i wish i had the power to release them.. *deep sigh*
Apart from that, the air of 'something i dint understand' that exists in people (who frequently go to malls) within a circle of radius arnd 12 cms makes u feel so uncomfortable!! but anyways.. why the hell should i care? i dunno.. i dun care..
i wanna sleep now..
have to read a novel in order to get a revision of "happiness"..

an abrupt end to pretty irritating thoughts that extract hell lot of energy frm the BRAIN..

Shruti

Thursday, June 01, 2006

TWO INTERVOWEN STORIES

STORY 1

Walkin down the road...
Wht do i see?
I see droplets of wisdom splashing my face...
Wht do i do?
I wipe them off, thinkin them to be impure..
Am i right?
Maybe no
What shud i do?
I dunt know.........

Why does it happen like that? Why is everything so unpredictable in life? By "everything" i mean "thoughts".. Why are they so unpredictable?
How can a simple thought change the whole world arnd us? How and why are they so successful in blinding our eyes and numbing ur senses? how far do we drift away from reality due to the restrictions put up by our own senses? wht is REALITY ? Willl i ever come to know? is it possible to atleast inch closer to this thing called REALITY? do senses prove to be a barrier in understanding reality? can we get closer to IT by controlin our senses.. or.. maybe totally eradicating them frm our system?
Ahaan.. that woould be a blessing on humanity.. WHY?? Just imagine a persn who cant sense the feel of touch, heat, cold, smell [etc.].. What happens then?that person is really blessed; why?? cuz he can feel REALITY.. he can feel the power of uniqueness.. UNIQUEness??!! WHY??!! well.. simply becuz he cant differentiate b/w diff senses.. for him every food item will smell the same way.. for him, heat and cold will feel the same.. n why not!! wht the hell is a difference b/w heat and cold?? everything afterall are atoms [right???].. So it means.. is there a way to know REALITY (real picture of earth) by numbng our senses.. by seeing thru a blind man's eye.. listenin thru a deaf man's ears.. and living a DEAD MAN's life............ ??????????????????
This thought is really strange.. THOUGHTS usually are so strange.. why do they have to be an open ended system? why cant they end at the same location whr they started? infact how does our brain create imaginary YET valid links conecting two entiely different events?...
i wish i knew...
i wish.....

STORY 2

Even though i think about such a non humanly thing.. can i really think of doing that?? obviosly NO.. then why do i do it?? becuz, i happen to be a HUMAN being.. just as its not possible to isolate those thoughts, i am unable to isolate myself from humanly thoughts like "anger".. i am strange [like any other NORMAL human being] and i love being what i am.. i wunt change myslef for ne1 elsez sake.. i know my limitations and will have to work on them on my own.. yea.. right.. will hafta work them out somehow...
somehow....
work them out somehow....