Q - rious Thoughts

Wow, Curiosity can make our mind leap miles ahead of our mental capability to unveil the truth we search for. Its so mysterious and yet so beautiful! Understanding curiosity in itself is a ravelling mystery which simply electrifies every single atom in our mind (!). Its breathtakingly beautiful!

Curiosity is a search, search for finding and linking the missing pieces of THE puzzle so that it doesnt remain puzzling anymore and ends up in the forming a comprehensible picture. Its a wild crazy search purely relying on intution. It invokes passion.. It invokes innovation!

Is curiosity worth this much of energy consumption? Yes!
It is the curiousity of a child that makes him learn to "clap". It is this curiosity which adds excitement in our lives. It is this curiosity which brings us closer to the reality, reality that our senses percieve and assert its existence.

This is so strange yet so true. Change in Perception opens up an entirely new alien world to us which ob, always existed, but just shielded by our own perception of the world (and our-selves!). That is, My reality may be very much different from that of my own brother! And it is this change in perception that divides this world into seemingly infinite yet finite "I"s. And
the reason why this word "conflict" exists in this world! (?).
As Deepak Chopra says in his book, "The physical World, including our bodies, is a response of the observer. We create our own bodies as we create the experience of the world".

What is the Real Reality?

--Shruti

The Land Where No One Is Old

AGELESS BODY, TIMELESS MIND
--Deepak Chopra

"The Land Where No Man Is Old" is a chapter in his book by Deepak Chopra where He mentions a WORD that caught my attention. "Siddhartha" by Herman Hesse.
Herman Hesse, in his novel, using Siddhartha (the central character) as the mediator communicates his view of spirituality and enlightenment very beautifully.
An excerpt from this Chapter (actually, its an excerpt from the novel "Siddhartha")

"At the end of the novel, Siddhartha speaks about his learnings with his oldest friend and companion, Vasudeva (the ferryman) :

"Have you also learned that secret for the river; that there is no such thing as time?"
A bright smile spread over Vasudeva's face. "Yes , Siddhartha. Is this what you mean? That the river is everywhere at the same time, at the source and at the mouth, at the waterfall, at the ferry, at the current, in the ocean, in the mountains, everywhere, and that the present only exists for it, not the shadow of the past, nor the shadow of the future?"
"That is it", said Siddhartha, "and when I learned that, I reviewed my life, and it was also a river, and Siddhartha the boy, Siddhartha the mature man and Siddhartha the old man, were only seperated by shadows, not through reality"
He spoke with delight, but Vasudeva just smiled radiantly at him and nodded in agreement. "

Wow! Isnt it beautiful? I realised one thing atleast. There is a lot of power in what is called Will Power. I've been searching for this book "Siddhartha" ever since I read this Chapter in Deepak Chopra's excellent book. And the funny part is Today itself, we got a mail that MATRIX is going to review this book! My happiness is boundless right now, because I finally got hold of this ebook! It was Just a Click away.

What do I learn from this? Simply that, Most of the answers to our questions lie within and around our immediate surroundings. The only thing which lacks is Awareness.

I've been thirstily searching for a book to read, that'd quench my thirst for experiencing the feeling of completeness, the feeling of satisfaction. Now I've got TWO books with me
AGELESS BODY, TIMELESS MIND (By Deepak Chopra)
SIDDHARTHA (By Herman Hesse)

Search is Complete!

--Shruti

The Touch

The room so dark..
The room so grim..
The room so gloomy
was once so lively

He sits in that corner..
in a cryptic subsitence..
Unsure of his present..
he questions his existence..

He sits in the dark..
deciphering the silence..
Ah Silence!..
the self created delusion..

Her Laughter Echoes in the dark..
and he knows that its in his mind..
He feels her presence near..
and lo! there she is.. Hear!

He sees her in the dark..
stepping back into the dark..
The Angelic glare..
dissolving into the dark..

He longs to touch..
her flowing golden hair..
crowning, her angelic glare
but she fades.. silently..

He fights his illusions..
and the echoes in his mind,
But his mind weaves a pattern..
A pattern of his past

The withered dying rose..
which now lay in his hands..
conjures up the fond
memories of the past..

He sits in the dark..
deciphering the silence..
Unsure of his present..
he questions his existence..

He stares at the dark..
His WORLD so DARK..
He feels her presence near..
and lo! there she is.. Hear!

She comes to him again..
Smiles at him again..
The Angelic glare..
lits the room bright again..

and he sees himself again..
in the light again..
With the light getting stronger,
he feels her presence near..

She is close to him now..
Illuminating the DARK..
Illuminating his WORLD,
She Touches his Heart..

He sees her again..
stepping back into the light..
The Angelic glare..
dissolving into the light..

She is HOPE..
And HOPE is she..
SHE.. who Touched him
SHE.. who illuminated him

The Touch..
is what he felt..
A Hope..
is what he saw..

The room so dark..
The room so grim..
The room so gloomy
HOPE will always be lively

--Shruti

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Random Thoughts generated in my head.. collected over a period of time..

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A Word.. nothing but a feeling..
"You" and "I".. nothing but words..

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Do I prefer being an observer..
for the love of being an observer?
OR
for being a bad communicator?

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When in Solitude,
Experience..
not Solitude..
But Loneliness..

This is because, unless you dont experience loneliness, you wont be able to open your eyes to things that surround you and ARE of importance. Once you are lonely (not alone and got exhausted of excessive thinking), you will see that your cupboard needs cleaning.. or, its been quite a while since u played piano! And.. you will see that you actually are NOT lonely, Nature is with you.. It wont leave you lonely ever..
Nothing is as intoxicating as a ride on your bicycle, at night, on a lonely road, feeling the cool night breeze brushing your face and the moon leading and lighting your path..

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Do I like to PLAY with words?
No, I like the WORD play
PLAY, is what we do.. with the Truth..

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A Word.. nothing but a Feeling..
A Feeling.. nothing but a word..

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People gave me a name..
A name that tells, I am ME..
The name is not important..
But my Existence is..
I was born nameless
But I'll die with that name

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--Shruti

Nothing..? Sure..?

Is this Magic?

....Mathematisation
...........Manipulation
.....................Illusion?

Man! And he [our MMP sir] created Something out of Nothing using simple manipulation! He extracted Some thing out of this non-existent quantity.. Zero!
Is this Magic?
No! Its Mathematics.. but yeah! Its a Magical Mathematical Beauty


So.. Next time if you hear youself say "The Solution to this problem is NOTHING", Just explore that nothing. You'll surely find something in that nothing!
Is this Magic?
No! Its searching for a solution by application of mind [if brain doesnt help much!] to explore various paths that have a potential Way to land up in a solution. Once the mind catches hold of the right path, LO! Can u see that pretty SOLUTION waving at u with enthusiasm?


Is this Magic?
Yes..
........It is

--Shruti

CHOICE

"Given a Choice, Choose what you love to do; and in the absence of it, start loving whatever you HAVE to do"
This is what my dad believes in and advises during the appropriate moments. [Its not that I dont agree with it.. I actually do.. Agree..]

WOW! So, is that the only choice that exists? Choosing between Real love [for the choice made] and forced love[for the choice made]? How can I start loving The Thing [outcome of the choice made out from a box having limited options] which actually disinterests me and cant keep me glued to itself?
Limited Choice is often encountered in life when big important decisions have to be made! And this always calls in for tremendous brainstorming for eliminating the confusion of what Choice would make forced love less forced. Anyhow, A Choice has to be made eventually and has to be lived with, till its existence is significant. Now, If the forced love turns to Real, Well and good; And if it doesnt, I always have another Choice....
....Pretension....

But, Why would I choose Pretence over Truth? Simply because it works! And maybe this Pretence might turn out to be the Truth with the progression time [which obviously will be having good outcome]

So..
Pretension.. better than Truth?

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CHILL!

Your Fat, Bald Boss comes to your terminal, weirdly dressed, absolutely beaming about his up-to-date fashion!
Boss: Wow! I never knew that people would love my fashion sense.. Just look at everybody.. They look awe-struck.. I never knew that I could make Heads Turn! Look at YOU! You look stunned even now.. Do I look that good?
You: Yess Boss! [Man! Isnt Pretension better than truth! ;)]

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--Shruti

Beta-Phi!

A few quotes.. So funny!

• I'm confusing dividing and multiplying. It happens occasionally. (!)
• And then you say "Eureka, the solutions to this equation are in table 8.1 in Griffiths!" (Hehe)
• Quantum mechanics is all hocus pocus...and it's all true. (yep!)

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Beauty!

An Eagle.. Gliding.. High above.. Touching the sky.. Oblivious of astonishing eyes staring at it.. Oblivious of living creatures down earth shreiking and admiring this thing of Beauty!
It continues Gliding.. Gliding over the Chapora Fort,Goa while these living creatures pause to click pictures.. Exclaiming.. "Ah.. What a Beauty!"
This Solitary Glide-r will continue to Glide.. Its eagle-sharp eyes always scanning and protecting the Fort..
The Solitary Glide-r will continue to Glide..
.....Loving its Solitary Freedom.....
While I stare at it in awe, oblivious of my existence and see these words escape my mouth..
"Ah.. What a Beauty!"

--Shruti

HALT-Stop Right There

There I saw two distant figures with their faces [eyes?] pointing in my direction. A feeling of recognition dawned on me and I felt an urge to strenghten my intution. This thought got overpowered by my will-power of experiencing a few moments of absolute silence in solitude. So, instead of going straight to 3115, I climbed up the stairs and entered 3245. In an attempt to save electricity, I switched off all the lights and fans excepting 1 fan [Yesterday's interaction obviously awed me to a great extent, strenghtening my future plans and aims]. As I turned back to get seated, I saw the two figures approaching me with a look of surprise on their faces.

"Yaar, aaj OR ki class cancel ho gayi hai kya?" asked one of them. "Tu yahaan kya kar rahi hai?" asked another.
"Pata nahi yaar mujhe.. main yahaan aise hi aayi thi yaar.. " i replied.
"Oh.. humne socha tha ki shayad shruti ko pata hoga ki class ka kya huva.. shayad room shift kiya ho sir ne" responded one of them.
I smiled..
"Waise tu itni subah yahaan kya kar rahi hai.. subah subah insti aake bhi class ke badle khaali room mein [with a smirk on face cuz it was followed by some silly joke]". said one of them
"Yaar.. Bas.. Thodi shaanti chahiye thi.."
"Toh ghar pe kya Rock bands perform kar rahe hain?" [hehe]
"Arey, gen yaar" [I love the word "Gen"]
...the convo continued and I ended up in my friend's room in MB from 3245...

Sometimes, Its so hard to make others see and believe in the reason for which you do certain things. But then, why do you want them to believe in your reason? Why do you want to convince them into seeing truth in your reason when they have alternate reasons perfectly describing The Things in a different way? When they are already so convinced of their reason, then, whats the use of convincing them to see alternate truth? It would be a pointless use of energy and its best given the command: HALT-STOP RIGHT THERE!

Well, in my case The Thing was Shruti's presence in the room 3245. I was there because I wanted to re-experience something that's a rarity for me.. Something that doesnt come to me at home (I can no way go to it.. It has to come to me).. Something that struck me as a lightening a few days back, in the room 3245.. that Awed me.. that shocked me.. It was a manifestation.. was it real? I do not know..

I was gazing at a distant tree enjoying the beauty of nature.. soft sunshine [around 9 am] falling carelessly on the leaves.. the subtle rustling of the leaves.. and my conversation with me.. i.e my thoughts..
<--Thoughts related to 'thinking process and how our MIND creates Imaginary yet valid links'--> "Talking with me is so Great.. So Natural.. So pure.. So uninfluenced.. So Self-Revealing..
Sometimes, Communication between me and me HALTS (Stops Right There!).. Landing ME into Silence.. ME? Yes, Me.. My soul..
Oh!! Its soo peaceful, these moments of absolute purity, least chaos (in mind), inexpressible Happiness, the steady and calm rythmic breathing.. The feeling of Self-Acceptance.. Wow!! Its Awesome..
--> I am a state of Turmoil-less existance and its Perfect.."
This happened a few days back when all my thoughts just dissolved into nothingness for some time.. I was just gazing outside, absolutely at peace with myself and the things around me.. and then the lightening struck.. I realised that its been some while since the last thought struck me [damn.. why did this realisation come to me?].. I still dont know if it happened for real.. But whatever it was, I really enjoyed that feeling.. that feeling of getting lost in blankness.. in nothingness..

Afterall, Feelings cant be reached out to.. they come to you!
Similarly, Thoughts flow freely in mind.. You cant expect any response on pressing your mind to stop Thinking..
Thinking: HALT-Stop Right There

--Shruti

CHANGE-A-GAIN

Change Again.. AND Change - A gain..

I dont know what is making me write this on a beautiful afternoon like today. Its just a strange mystic urge to write something. The day was fine today except from the perplexing thought [that evolved recently] that kept swaying in and out of my conciousness.

How can a person change drastically in a two-months time [PS-I period]? Well, I did [Atleast I think that I did].. How? I started giving importance to small things that always escaped my notice before.. I started being more organised.. I was closer to me, my inner soul.. I started valueing Things and People.. I became quiter.. became less aggressive.. and more matured(!)..

But this is not the thought that kept popping in my mind.. It was the enormous rate at which we see ourselves evolve with progression in time. The pure enigmatic way that change continuosly changes..
Then do I mean to say that being back in pilani violated the constancy of change princliple in just a months time? NO!
Then do I mean to say that I changed again after coming back? NO!
Well, these two statements though may not show signs of consistency, they actually do.. The whole concept gets clearer when the concept of CHANGE is defined properly

So, what is CHANGE?
Here, The change which comes into focus is

• Evolution [Self vs Self interaction].. self evolution.. in terms of self realisation and the change in basic point of view of viewing things/people/relations....
  This change is no doubt more subtle and in many cases doesnt cross the boundaries of SELF. That is to say, This Change is rarely noticable to the Universe apart from THE self and the changes witnessed just become permanent as the new layers keep on adding.. BUT the rate of addition of a new layer is pretty slow. that is to say, when This change occurs, it stays for a long while and sure is ROCK STRONG!
• Surface Changes [Self v/s World interaction].. Ahaan, there are many factors responsible for this change! Mood, Environment, People in the close vicinity, Current scenario... to name a few factors. These no doubt are clearly visible to the non-self elements and clearly are visible to the self too.. BUT these changes find themselves changing at a very fast rate and hence cant be called ROCK STRONG!

Phew, so this means, I continuosly AND simultaneously Change [suface changes] as well as Not Change [evolution] !!

Well, Now that the catagorisation is done, I now want to view it in a non-biased way.. i.e, in non catagorised way..
Now, we all observe mean deviation in our behaviour from the natural behaviour in a group.. [Natural behaviour: our tendency to react to situations in solitude]. A person best exhibits his individualism when alone.. because then nobody is there around to assess, comment, modify or influence the thinking and the natural behaviour!

So, It means when we behave differently, we do so not because we TEND to but simply because we HAVE to??

-- Shruti

Classy?

I m just more CLASSY than I am QUANTA!
Why is that I search for truth in the Classical concepts when the Quantum concepts answer questions which the other cant explain? Why do I sense more beauty in Classical behaviour of systems?

"Henry Stapp (1995) argues that "classical mechanics is not constitutionally suited to accommodate consciousness, whereas quantum mechanics is" (abstract). This, he asserts, is because of "certain logical deficiencies" that are not present in quantum mechanics (1.3). The ground advanced for this claim is that classical mechanics holds that a "physical system is to be conceived of as fundamentally a conglomerate of simple microscopic elements each of which interacts only with its immediate neighbors" (2.12). In particular, a classical description of a system will include a description of field values at points in the system, but these descriptions record only what is going on at each of the points, and not features of the system as a whole."

okay, I dont know who Henry Stapp is, just happened to stumble upon this article..

Well.. "physical system is to be conceived of as fundamentally a conglomerate of simple microscopic elements each of which interacts only with its immediate neighbors".. hmmn.. but then its done to simplify the behavior of that particular system and arrive at solutions.. Seeing the whole picture [which is non-classy] is very very difficult if you are close to the picture.. Cuz then the picture becomes too large n complicated..

Its practically very difficult to appreciate the Quantum beauty.. maybe because, my intution is better than my mathematics.. And the mind happens to favor the intution!
Should really do something about it..
cuz..
I m just more CLASSY than I am QUANTA!

--Shruti