LOOKING BACK [contd...]

The sun is shining pretty bright outside.. while i sit here tryin hard to concetrate on SPM.. Thinking about sun, makes me wonder "how can a small mass change result in emission of such huge amount of energy??".. now again.. haunting question keeps on givin me pretty nasty tugs [i wish i knew occulumency ;)] tryin to get an answer to the question >> "What is this Energy??"
I wish i knew what it is.. i wish i had enormous curiosity to get an answer by ponderin over this question more.. i wish i had the WILL power to go and NET search till i get a satisfactory answer.. i wish i could visualise the creation of energy.. i wish i could merge with the nature.. i wish i could understand the beautiful complexities existing in nature.. i wish i cud communicate with nature.. i wish i could learn to love the most hateful things.. i wish i could forgive everyone and everything.. i wish i dint have to study to sustain my body (to keep it alive).. i wish i knew the answers of every possible question... i wish i wish and i wish...

So, DO I BELIEVE in GOD?? if I do then I should believe in SATAN too.. because.. These two BEINGS (easier to visualise them as beings) EXIST in me!!.. and is maybe true for evry mortal being.. a die hard optimist can also not deny this fact.. yesterday's entry was not pretty much clear.. ONCE we throw off the satan from us, us become GOD.. BUT then, We cant be GOD.. why?? because

• GOD is energy and the energy content is so huge in the universe that we cant be a representive of the whole CONSTRUCTIVE energy (similarly this is the reason why noone can be a PURE satan)...
• Its just not possible to throw off the "satan" from our self..

We have the possible alternatives :

--50% of people are created with 100% +ve energy (pure GOD)
--50% of people are created with 100% -ve energy (pure SATAN)

If this is the distribution.. then what happens?? Hmm, if the negative energy initiates its work (work means, starts showin its dominance) , then the +ve energy comes into action and tries to nullify the -ve effect.. as a result.. EVERYTHING PERISHES... SO, this proves that this kind of distribution is not favourable... that is, nobody can be pure GOD or pure SATAN..

• --100 % people are created with 50% +ve energy and 50% -ve energy

if this is the case then though there are chances of everything perishing, still the chances in this case gets scaled down by say K%.. this is because if negetivity does show up, even though internal positivity comes to fight with it.. there are other +ve elements (other beings with +ve energy) too which will try to reduce the effect.. but the distrubution being exact 50%, therefore chances of destruction are still high (sadly)...

• --Uneven Distribution

This the most favourable one, because ENTROPY here is the maximum [ nature does go by maximum entropy rule>> Delta(G) = Delta(H) - T*Delta(S) .. so high "S" means low G.. which is most favourable..] , so what happens is the number of alternatives increase manyfold and lets say move in a GRAPEVINE manner.. entropy increases n hence there are numorous ways of rectifying a conflicting situation with much less energy consumption (ie to say, without much DESTRUCTION).. so in this case survival chances are the maximum..

So what do We conclude?? simple conclusion >> IF YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE GOD AND TRY PROVING IT, THEN I WONT BELIEVE YOU!! :D...

...showing my devotion to spm....
Shruti