anyways, Ever since my childhood i'd always wanted to understand the human mind.. how queer is its workin.. it seems rather impossible to know wht ur next THOUGHT IS gonnabe (constructive / destructive)..
What are Emotions?? as much as i try searching for the answer, this OBVIOUS thing puts a halt on my thinking.. the OBVIOUS thing (which you are told right from your childhood) chains ur thinkin and while attempting to break these chaining barriers, u absolutely forget your initial quest.. what was the QUESTION u were pondering over.. so wht is that "OBVIOUS" thing?? well, it is [atleast what i am told] >> "beta, these things cant be understood, but just felt"... Why is it so difficult to CONTROL these emotions?????? well.. they can be >>
- TOO STRONG TO FIGHT WITH: well, some emotions really have the power to blind us such that we become IGNORANT of the OBVIOUS, they make us so numb that we just cant resist the forceful blow they give us.. well, this emotion for example >> "TRUST" (well, its not an emotion but i dunno the exact EMOTION which arises due to TRUST.. so have to compensate somehow), When we trust someone, we tend to ignore this fact that nobody is entirely truthful (no human can be.. thats wht characterises human makeup), so what do we do when we hear something offending about that person?? say that he has done something wrong (now anotherquestion pops up.. wht is wrong n what is right?? but have to leave it to DESTINY when it chosses to give ann answer to).. our 1st thought will be to somehow force our mind to believe that its not the person i am connected to.. maybe its some random guy they're talkin abt.. but when we realise that its HIM, instead of slapping the truth on our face, u think "oh god!! my poor baby.. must get him outta the mess as soon as possible..".. WHYY????? okay, agreed that trust comes from love.. but why does it induce wrong notions in our mind?? are we really so dumb to not see the OBVIOUS??? well this is one reason.. and if, even if we try to break away frm this in order to CLEAR your view of the world, we cant do so.. once we start behaving in NON-HUMAN way, we are really given pretty cool names like "weird", "psychic", "SELFISH (most common)".. n many such interesting ones...
- MUST BE COMFORTING YOU : This is another domain which goes in favour of EMOTIONS TAKIN CONTROL... A simple example.... I've had an icecream in the scorching heat and finally satisfied my "i-want-an icecream" hunger which has been haunting me while I were writin the ELECTRICAL SCIENCES II comprehensive examination... so how do I feel at the moment, just when I had the last lick of the icecream..??? "wow!! it seems like heaven to me.. where m i?? is it really something called civilisation where i've had the icecream?? neway, WHO THE HELL BOTHERS??!! ICECREAM WAS AWESOME, maybe i am gonna have another one!".. so this feeling called "aesthetic pleasure" takes me away from the real world (wht is real world?? a world of illusions.. crap.. i wont deviate... no i wont deviate.. :)..) .. real world, in the sense, it numbs our worries which at that point of time take a back seat.. so why would anyone want to spoil the absolute sense of happiness and resort back to their messed up life?? (i think that nobody's life is perfect, how hard may we try to seem 2 be happily married to happiness, we never are (another human tendency) , maybe they are the ones who really need some sorta consolation, some sorta reasssurance that they are not lonely.. there is always a hand holdin on their sanity.. somebody out there has arms outstreached to cradle them.. to love them..).. so this is the reason why we let "on-the-spot" created emotions win over.. well, if something as small as an icecream can boost up ur spirits, then thinkin abt BIG things (i mean emotions) like LOVE, ENEMITY, REVENGE really must be havin much more impact... maybe their impact is much more stronger and hence much more lasting.... (this catagory excludes the negetive feelings though..)
What does this discusion (me v/s me discussion) boil down to?? well.. i knew the answer beforehand.. NOTHING!! How hard may i try, my progress doesnt even inch an inch forward.. all that i understood is that there are still many points missing which complete the picture..
so generally speaking, i think its absolutely POSSIBLE to control our emotions [THINK only not DO (another tendency of my mortal being..)].. but for that u HAVE to do somethings which are fobidden by the society without being an outcast.. maybe one of the things being DETACHMENT.. DETACHMENT from illusions (as if i have mastered that art.. duh!).... lets see.. wht all khichdi is my mind cooking right now...
but whtever, right now, i am really having pretty good thoughts on detachment.. MAJOR one being.. DETACHING MYSELF from this blog for today :)...
DETACHING MYSELF....
Shruti....
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