Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Rainbow
She was wearing a black dress. I saw her from my balcony. It was raining outside... very slightly... maybe it couldn't even be called a drizzle. The sound of wind passing through the leaves, the raindrops just wetting the evening road, made the atmosphere lively...
Tak tak tak tak
...the frequency of the "taks" increased as she ran. And slowly, the sound subsided. She was far away.
Black barely visible under the cover of Rainbow... is beautiful.
The little girl in black now was nowhere in sight. My ears searched for a sound resembling a "tak", but in vain. The rain ceased. Everything was still, lifeless. Silence reined. Maybe it was the deadening silence that made me have an insane desire of having a look at that girl... the girl in black. The thought was too tempting, to break the silence, somehow. No... to the break the silence by the "taks"... only... by the black dress only...
Tak tak tak tak
She came back... running... and clutching a colorful rainbow umbrella in her hand. I was still in my balcony and made an attempt to look at her face, my eyes made rapid movements to satisfy my unfathomable desire. I wished that she would lift her head so that i can see her, the girl in black, and lift, did she. And i saw, her umbrella... almost covering the black (dress)...
Black barely visible under the cover of Rainbow... beautiful!
Tak tak tak tak
...the frequency of the "taks" increased as she ran. And slowly, the sound subsided. She was far away.
Black barely visible under the cover of Rainbow... is beautiful.
The little girl in black now was nowhere in sight. My ears searched for a sound resembling a "tak", but in vain. The rain ceased. Everything was still, lifeless. Silence reined. Maybe it was the deadening silence that made me have an insane desire of having a look at that girl... the girl in black. The thought was too tempting, to break the silence, somehow. No... to the break the silence by the "taks"... only... by the black dress only...
Tak tak tak tak
She came back... running... and clutching a colorful rainbow umbrella in her hand. I was still in my balcony and made an attempt to look at her face, my eyes made rapid movements to satisfy my unfathomable desire. I wished that she would lift her head so that i can see her, the girl in black, and lift, did she. And i saw, her umbrella... almost covering the black (dress)...
Black barely visible under the cover of Rainbow... beautiful!
Monday, September 03, 2007
Astonishing...
Yeah! it really is..
I have a very strange habit of sticking to computer excessively during the time of comprees, browsing through net, downloading music and ebooks, reading articles on people or science or cartoon strips or blogs.. wait! blogs!
Oh god! I love reading blogs.. maybe because, they tell you how actually a person is from inside. It exposes you to his/her world. The blogs which one writes, for the self, what the self feels at that point of time (or maybe at some other point of time) cant be false? Can they be? Well, i so hope the answer is NO, of course its not totally true which is a sad thing.
There are some blogs which have tons and tons of jokes and funny anecdotes/ stories.. some blogs which are like online diaries.. some studded with philosophical/analytical stuffs.. but all tell something about the person the particular blog is connected with.
Well, the thing which i noticed, is that, though different blogs seem different for each person, i can picture myself in their places. Okay, maybe our point of view may not be much in agreement, but the thing is that, they might make me wonder.. "yep, why is this also not possible?".
But now, what is even more astonishing is that..
Just read a post in a blog, which is a replica of the thoughts which i had in my mind (well, that'd be a few days back.. its there in my comp, but dint publish it, for the fear of seeming strange.. can this blog anyway get any stranger?), making me wonder, wow maybe i am not all that different.. maybe i am also like many other people in this world, who have exactly the same thinking!
Anyways, that post is still astounding me to a great great extent! So better start Qmech now.
Still astonished..
Shruti
7th dec 2006: Wrote this post then, 9 months back! Why publishing now? Ah gen, feel like. Been reading my unpublished posts on blogspot, and trying to recall why i didn't post them. But, i cant remember the reasons now! And btw, which and who's post had astonished me? I don't remember!
Shruti
Friday, August 31, 2007
A Whole New World
I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride
A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you
Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me
[Aladdin]
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride
A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you
Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me
[Aladdin]
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Placements
Phew, finally some break!
The last few days have been very tiring.. going for PPTs, writing tests (for 4 companies till now - Wipro, Infy, CTS and Satyam), getting shortlisted in two (Infy and Cognizant), and then finally getting selected in none (am pretty good at splooshing interviews, got an inborn talent for it)!
BTW, I was really not expecting to get shortlisted in Infosys, the reason being, my Wipro Apt had gone far better than the infy one (Infy mein, i'd left 'round 9 questions out of i don't remember how many in the verbal section). It was a bit disheartening initially to not see my name in the wipro list but then i was not even expecting it, given to the preparation that I'd made (didn't bother to pick up R S Agarwal, even before the tests, was reading C you see). Since I'd done okay in the logical and technical parts on the wipro paper and still dint make through, i felt that my verbal section went pathetically bad (i somehow knew that from the start, even before giving the test). And since I'd left 9 questions (Infy paper)that too in the verbal section (which am already weak in), i was almost sure that Infy is also gone. But miraculously, i was shortlisted! Maybe the non-verbal part crossed the cutoff (no sectional cutoff then?), and yeah, anyways, I'd almost completed that part, left 2 or 3, i guess (and anyways, if apts don't have the verbal part, they wont be this painful)!
Interview, oh interview! If someone would like to know, how could one sploosh an HR interview, that too Infy's HR interview. Ask me! All you have to do is, fumble while searching for your pen or you can even make a screeching sound while opening your folder to hand out your CV and further more when asked "tell me something about yourself", think a lot and speak less so as to make the interviewer feel that there is nothing special in you or you are bad at communication. See, so easy to lose such an easy opportunity!
CTS interview had not gone bad (at least i thought so, because, i had talked this time and he seemed to be listening, shot a few informal questions in between and ended the 30 minutes interview with a "I hope to see you again!"), but then, why would they select a non-techie for a tech job, when they have ME and BE people to recruit.
Yeah, this had left me shattered and i had become so morose at home, behaved as if i have committed a huge crime by not getting placed and even blamed the companies for being so partial (okay, Infy excluded, that toh i only had splooshed real bad). But now, its okay. All the anger has gone and things seem to make sense. That's cuz, firstly, MSc single degree students HAVE got placed in good companies, so can not blame them; and secondly, people have worked really hard for placements (unlike me, i should start picking up books now! Seriously, till now I've been lucky to get bad but okay grades, enough to make me eligible to sit for the companies; and though i have a bad CG, it's not extremely bad. Just around average).
Met Subhash sir today (regarding the project plan thing, deadline tomorrow), really has been ages since i lifted up the cosmology book. Like sir said when i told him about my splooshed interviews, "talk more and sound confident, this is what sells", am gonna do that only now onwards! Anyways, IBM is coming at 4! Dont know if they'll allow MSc students to sit for it. Whatever, now i am at peace, and wont get affected even if by chance, they dont allow MSc students. Afterall, they also have preset requirements.
Signing off (with an aching head --> lack of proper sleep)
Shruti
The last few days have been very tiring.. going for PPTs, writing tests (for 4 companies till now - Wipro, Infy, CTS and Satyam), getting shortlisted in two (Infy and Cognizant), and then finally getting selected in none (am pretty good at splooshing interviews, got an inborn talent for it)!
BTW, I was really not expecting to get shortlisted in Infosys, the reason being, my Wipro Apt had gone far better than the infy one (Infy mein, i'd left 'round 9 questions out of i don't remember how many in the verbal section). It was a bit disheartening initially to not see my name in the wipro list but then i was not even expecting it, given to the preparation that I'd made (didn't bother to pick up R S Agarwal, even before the tests, was reading C you see). Since I'd done okay in the logical and technical parts on the wipro paper and still dint make through, i felt that my verbal section went pathetically bad (i somehow knew that from the start, even before giving the test). And since I'd left 9 questions (Infy paper)that too in the verbal section (which am already weak in), i was almost sure that Infy is also gone. But miraculously, i was shortlisted! Maybe the non-verbal part crossed the cutoff (no sectional cutoff then?), and yeah, anyways, I'd almost completed that part, left 2 or 3, i guess (and anyways, if apts don't have the verbal part, they wont be this painful)!
Interview, oh interview! If someone would like to know, how could one sploosh an HR interview, that too Infy's HR interview. Ask me! All you have to do is, fumble while searching for your pen or you can even make a screeching sound while opening your folder to hand out your CV and further more when asked "tell me something about yourself", think a lot and speak less so as to make the interviewer feel that there is nothing special in you or you are bad at communication. See, so easy to lose such an easy opportunity!
CTS interview had not gone bad (at least i thought so, because, i had talked this time and he seemed to be listening, shot a few informal questions in between and ended the 30 minutes interview with a "I hope to see you again!"), but then, why would they select a non-techie for a tech job, when they have ME and BE people to recruit.
Yeah, this had left me shattered and i had become so morose at home, behaved as if i have committed a huge crime by not getting placed and even blamed the companies for being so partial (okay, Infy excluded, that toh i only had splooshed real bad). But now, its okay. All the anger has gone and things seem to make sense. That's cuz, firstly, MSc single degree students HAVE got placed in good companies, so can not blame them; and secondly, people have worked really hard for placements (unlike me, i should start picking up books now! Seriously, till now I've been lucky to get bad but okay grades, enough to make me eligible to sit for the companies; and though i have a bad CG, it's not extremely bad. Just around average).
Met Subhash sir today (regarding the project plan thing, deadline tomorrow), really has been ages since i lifted up the cosmology book. Like sir said when i told him about my splooshed interviews, "talk more and sound confident, this is what sells", am gonna do that only now onwards! Anyways, IBM is coming at 4! Dont know if they'll allow MSc students to sit for it. Whatever, now i am at peace, and wont get affected even if by chance, they dont allow MSc students. Afterall, they also have preset requirements.
Signing off (with an aching head --> lack of proper sleep)
Shruti
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Window
Long time.
I've not been busy. And I've missed blogging so much.
Then why did i not blog? Been too lazy to type down a few words?
Yes.
I've met new people in a past few months. Some who showed me a new way of thinking, some who left me in awe and some who washed away my notions of how certain people should be like. Have i changed again? hmm, maybe not exactly, but yeah surely realised new things.
Like hema said, am talking a lot (something that i never did much of, before).
Placements almost started. Do i want a job? No, I dont. Then why am i sitting for them?
Just because am not sure of my future? because am not confident enough of going for phd? Because my parents want me to? yeah, but the weight attached to each of these factors is too low. Maybe that's why am not even working hard towards getting placed. Then why am i sitting for them? What happened to my belief of taking risks? Will i now try to escape? will i try to justify what i am doing now is more mature? No, I dont want to. If playing safe is called maturity, then i detest this kind of maturity. But still, i'll try acting "mature". WHY? WHY? WHY?
Some changes just hurt so much.
Friendship. I never had full confidence in this word. Maybe, i still dont. But staying away from home (though for a few weeks), made me realise how much people believe in it. How much some people value it. Sometimes, even i feel like having such friends. Of trusting someone 100%. But now, i surely have started having more faith in people. Atleast now, i share some things with people.
Some changes just lift up our spirits.
I wont say Kodaikanal made my personality take a full 180 degree turn, but it sure did add more to the way i think, how i view people, on what basis i judge them, and how i see life.
And... maybe... falling in love neednt be a big issue at all. Its just natural.
"You live in a dreamworld Shruti, snap out of it", i've heard that a zillion times, and now, when i see myself drifting away from my dreamworld, it just makes me laugh. I am just losing it. Please come back. Dont leave me.
Does entering the real world mean throwing away the dreams rather than making them a reality? It is more wiser? Damn, it is. Playing safe!
No, am not frustated, neither am confused (or maybe i am!). Just realised that i still do have my dreamworld and it sure is beautiful and alive. Maybe i am drifting away from it, but something is always there to pull me back. I dont know what attracts me to it again and again. Is it magical? Maybe...
Window!
I've not been busy. And I've missed blogging so much.
Then why did i not blog? Been too lazy to type down a few words?
Yes.
I've met new people in a past few months. Some who showed me a new way of thinking, some who left me in awe and some who washed away my notions of how certain people should be like. Have i changed again? hmm, maybe not exactly, but yeah surely realised new things.
Like hema said, am talking a lot (something that i never did much of, before).
Placements almost started. Do i want a job? No, I dont. Then why am i sitting for them?
Just because am not sure of my future? because am not confident enough of going for phd? Because my parents want me to? yeah, but the weight attached to each of these factors is too low. Maybe that's why am not even working hard towards getting placed. Then why am i sitting for them? What happened to my belief of taking risks? Will i now try to escape? will i try to justify what i am doing now is more mature? No, I dont want to. If playing safe is called maturity, then i detest this kind of maturity. But still, i'll try acting "mature". WHY? WHY? WHY?
Some changes just hurt so much.
Friendship. I never had full confidence in this word. Maybe, i still dont. But staying away from home (though for a few weeks), made me realise how much people believe in it. How much some people value it. Sometimes, even i feel like having such friends. Of trusting someone 100%. But now, i surely have started having more faith in people. Atleast now, i share some things with people.
Some changes just lift up our spirits.
I wont say Kodaikanal made my personality take a full 180 degree turn, but it sure did add more to the way i think, how i view people, on what basis i judge them, and how i see life.
And... maybe... falling in love neednt be a big issue at all. Its just natural.
"You live in a dreamworld Shruti, snap out of it", i've heard that a zillion times, and now, when i see myself drifting away from my dreamworld, it just makes me laugh. I am just losing it. Please come back. Dont leave me.
Does entering the real world mean throwing away the dreams rather than making them a reality? It is more wiser? Damn, it is. Playing safe!
No, am not frustated, neither am confused (or maybe i am!). Just realised that i still do have my dreamworld and it sure is beautiful and alive. Maybe i am drifting away from it, but something is always there to pull me back. I dont know what attracts me to it again and again. Is it magical? Maybe...
Window!
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