Feels strange

Psentisem over (well almost!) and it wasn't until 2 days back that I really felt very strange (after reading what my friends wrote for me in my diary). The feeling of never having to attend classes in 3245, or the discussions with nuee, cycle rides and walks with her, sac-c time with hema, gen puting lacha in the astro room with her (though hardly ever cared to use the telescope)... perhaps the feeling of never again experiencing all that again contributed to that strange feeling. Strange... so feeling psenti? Don't I always, when comes the end?
For me, my third year forms a huge chunk of my BITSian life, maybe cuz that's when I enjoyed the courses (yes! which hardly ever happened in the first 2 years), met people who gave me a chance to develop admiration for them, talk to them, and have fun with them. The first four semesters really are a faded memory, something perhaps worth forgetting, for I did nothing. Not that I did something in my 3rd year, but sure enjoyed whatever happened in that period.
Not that I am being pensive for having to let go of the past three years, just that the memories now bring a smile to my face. As much as I anticipate that I'll miss this place, the enthu of going faaar faaar away and getting new experiences, is equal in intensity, or maybe more.

A feeling mixing smiles of the past with apprehension of the future, sorrows of the past with joys of the future, lessons leart from the history with those to be learnt in the future.

Feels strange.