DEDICATED TO ME [CONTD]

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My mind always wants me to jump over the boundaries that seperate ME and UNDERSTANDING.. But what could a BAD JUMPER like me do?

Well.. After the previous entry was made [on thursday], I kept pondering about that "Constraint Equations and my doubt" and realised that my understanding had faltered and hence THAT resulted in the doubt.. So now, Is that doubt cleared? Well, If my understanding dint falter AGAIN, then yes, it got cleared..

Well.. this now sets me thinking.. What are these doubts? hmm, according to me, Doubts are something that result due to incomplete knowledge and a big misconception that the [my] knowledge is complete in that regard. Be it be any kind of doubt [be it an academic doubt, or doubt on others or maybe self doubt..].. the above logic always holds true. Well, this gives rise to another DOUBT..

What is Knowledge?
I dont know! You tell me that "Shruti is spelled as S H R U T I" and since i Believe it, therefore now i have got acquainted with THIS Knowledge.
So is this what knowledge all about? Knowing a particular concept, Accepting it and then finally Believing it? Everything.. Everything in this world is a cluster of facts.. Every Experiment, Every Concept, ultimately reduces to a Packet of Facts.. So if i have a fraction of those facts embossed in my mind, does that make me knowlegdable [if I Know, Accept but NOT believe]?

--Shruti

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Well, This is an assorted entry [where the next thought may not flow with the preceding idea] by a confused brain which is in an apprehensive mood right now.. Nibbling these thoughts may land one in a state of indigestion...

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CHANGE...
Why does one observe CONSTANT CHANGE in their being as time progresses? Is it

• To withstand the pressure of living up to this world's EXPECTATIONS?
• To win the vicious race in this COMPETITIVE WORLD?
• To be NORMAL in the world's eyes?
• Because the STANDARDS one set for themselves are not good enough to survive in this world? [OR maybe its the vice versa!]

All the constraints above have one common word: World!! Its as if a reference [/common base/ common ground] has been preset.
The Thinking Group in this World is also after all composed of humans who ARE different and do THINK differently!
That means, unfortunately everyone does DEVIATE [the inner self does!] from the NORMAL WORLD traits and does succumb to the CHANGE..

How true AM I to this WORLD [or rather TO ME?]...

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WHAT AM I?
I am the mirror image of what this world made me..
I am a mere refection of my outer shell to the world..
The world sees THE MIRROR..
that's holding MY REFLECTION and NOT ME
You try breaking THE MIRROR [to see the "real me"] and
You'll see.. The broken pieces breaking the REFLECTION and moving to infinity from the "real me"..

I am this World's Daughter.. this World's Sister.. this World's Cousin.. this World's Friend.. But am my ENEMY..

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PERFECTLY IMPERFECT!
I am a perfectly perfect example of a perfectly imperfect species.. So, am mad at myself.. Cant blame anyone for my condition AND that irritates me even more.. I truly am MY ENEMY..

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STARE..
Assume I am being Stared at.. People say Staring is Wrong.. Why? Because..

• Something is wrong with me?
  Lets say, i am weirdly dressed!! So what? Is weirdly dressing wrong? What if i DONT find it weird.. Maybe I find YOU weirdly dressed!! Its as simple as me liking BITTER GOURD and you hating it!
  Perception! Different for different people..
  So this possiblity is striken off..
• Something is wrong with the starer?
  Why? The starer is simply either ADMIRING[Something beautiful to his/her taste] or AMUSING HIMSELF/HERSELF [by enjoyin the weirdness visible to his/her eyes].. What is wrong in harmless fun? oops! This possibility also vanished..

So is Staring Wrong?
I STARE AT A TREE.. DOES IT FEEL NAKED IN MY PRESENCE? DOES IT SHY OUT WHEN I STARE AT IT? NO!! IT GIVES ME SOLACE.. IT SOOTHES ME.. IT IRONS OUT ALL MY TENSION LINES..
So.. Is Staring Wrong...

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I love being my enemy!

Shruti...
--17/06/06

LISTEN..

There is so much to hear..
--World space satellite's one liner..

Shruti

LOST..

*A Small Poem written during a free hour*

I look up and there I see..
Branching leaves, above my head..
Shadows swaying, beneath my feet..
Patches of sunlight, on the ground..
And I know..
That I am lost


I walk fast and I walk straight..
Thick mystic bushes, mark my path..
Dense thorny branches, unlock my wounds..
Then my path, splits into many..
And I know..
That I am lost


I look straight and choose a way..
Crawling snakes, make that way..
And that way, leads me on..
Then I see, a dark damp tunnel..
And I know..
That I am lost


I walk fast and enter the tunnel..
Glowing hands, beckon me to the other end..
And I know..
That there is HOPE
And NOW I know..
That I am NOT lost....

I really think that i still am confused about what i want to do in Future..


Signin off..
Shruti..

ABSTRACT ART

Who hasnt heard about MF husain? Maqbool Fida Husain more popularly known as MF Husain is a well known Indian artist for his abstract art.
ABSTRACT ART??
What is ABSTRACT ART?
Well, This is what Wikipedia says: Abstract art is generally understood to mean art that does not depict objects in the natural world, but instead uses shapes and colors in a non-representational or subjective way. In the very early 20th century, the term was more often used to describe art, such as Cubist and Futurist art, that depicts real forms in a simplified or rather reduced way - keeping only an allusion of the original natural subject. Such paintings were often claimed to capture something of the depicted objects' immutable intrinsic qualities rather than its external appearance.

Being awed by his beautiful paintings, I wish to try understanding his paintings.
I maybe wrong, thats 1 possiblity.. but I maybe right.. thats also 1 possiblility..

M F Husain's Paintings and Shruti's Understanding:

1)


















Fear not child, of the black clouds you see..
I am THE Rain which provides life to the parched..
but only after the thunders and lightenings subside..

2)

Vast expanse of Barren Land..
A Human face.. facing that Vast expanse..
[Humans responsible for this barren land]

IS THIS..

Destruction OF Peace..
OR
Destruction BY Destruction OF Peace??

3)

Unveil me..
And you’ll see..

I am on a journey..
A journey with the destination unknown..

I am on a voyage..
A voyage of life..

4)

Oh mighty clouds! Save us and Our Child [Nature]..
Please don’t pass by..
Rain to your heart’s content and save us from the present drought..
That’s dehydrating us..
Let not Our Child face the same vendetta..

5)

During day, I cover my eyes.. (by my hand)
During night, I close my eyes.. (and so do you)
You can see me not..
So, You knoweth me not..
Its not always sunshine, throughout the day [as it seems to you]..
Shadows also creeps in, AT NIGHT……

6)

Clear Sky… and a Pleasant Path
[inside the coat]..
But oh..
Dark Clouds and Rough Sea!!
[outside the coat]..
Where did they come from??

This is the path of LOVE my dear..
Open your eyes and Look around
You’ll see Clear sky but with Dark Clouds..
You’ll travel a Pleasant Path but with Rough Sea accompanying it..

COAT: An eye-blinding layer of love

7)

I Am Delicate..
I Am Pure..

I Am Serene..
I Am Beautiful..

I AM FEMININE..
I AM MUSIC……

THE END...

Signing off..
Shruti

TEACH ME..

Some lessons can't be learnt..
They have to be lived, to be learnt..

-- ELEKTRA [The Movie]

Detaching..
Shruti

ALAG-THE MOVIE

ALAG-The Movie.. Or The Movie which is ALAG..
The movie starts with a small introduction wherein the audience is exposed to the cruel side of the world by a scientist who is inclined to acquiring fame and money in lieu of innocent peoples' lives. Here, Light really plays with the audience' love for visual beauty cuz its been excellently exploited. Its a real treat to eyes! Therefore really, the most beautiful part of the movie is the beautiful use of light [Art direction] accompanied by equally beautiful background score [as well as the music by "AADESH SRIVASTAVA"]. After the scientist lets us know about his excruciating intentions, the camera focuses on a place called MAHABALESHWAR where the central protagonist's mystic world is revealed to the audience. The director very beautifully tackles the "superstition" element which is by default attached with this word "mystic". Ahh.. Finally.. Now we are introduced to "TEJAS RASTOGI"- the main character of the movie by "POORVA RANA" (No description.. Watch the movie!!)
As the story progresses, a few clippings of his past are very skillfully stitched into the main story. And from this point onwards the movie starts..

What I really liked in this movie (my interpretation):

1. LIGHT: Light finds its existance only on half the part of the focused object.. Giving momentum to the "duality" [DARK and LIGHT sides of a human being] concept which adds on mystic beauty to the whole movie..
2. MUSIC: Who doesnt like music?? The music very easily merges with the ongoin of the movie.. really nice..
3. CENTRAL CHARACTER: The central character of the movie is a boy named "Tejas" who hadnt yet been polluted by the outer world.. What I liked in this character are PURITY and HONESTY holding on to him

Well, If, I am asked for my opinion.. I would really say "its a worth watch"!! :)

Signing off..
Shruti