Saturday, February 10, 2007
Bob thinks
The swinging Pendulum continues swinging (and the time moves on).. the bob is heavy (why?).. it runs left to right and right to left.. its tired of running.. it wants to break free.. but the string restraints it.. so it continues to run.. what is its equillibrium? to get back to its mean position.. or to snap itself off, from the string? the bob has to make a choice.. i have made mine...
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Understanding 'Point'
There is no word called 'Love'; there exist no Angels; Shadows are, but real; to Hope, is to sweep the 'dust' under the carpet, but the 'dust' still remains; and, I continue to live.. like an Alien (Do Aliens exist?). What's the 'point'? The problem is that there is no 'point'. A 'point' doesnt exist. POINT cant be defined.. POINT is, a virtual cluster of no-things.. but upon which everything is built...! [What's the point? POINT is the point. You have a point, I have a point, Who doesnt have a point?]
Altruism
"It’s amusing, Howard, to see you in the role of an altruist."
"You don’t have to insult me. It’s not altruism. But I’ll tell you this: most people say they’re concerned with the suffering of others. I’m not. And yet there’s one thing I can’t understand. Most of them would not pass by if they saw a man bleeding in the road, mangled by a hit-and-run driver. And most of them would not turn their heads to look at Steven Mallory. But don’t they know that if suffering could be measured, there’s no suffering in Steven Mallory when he can’t do the work he wants to do, than in a whole field of victims mowed down by a tank? If one must relieve the pain of this world, isn’t Mallory the place to begin?...However, that’s not why I’m doing it." - The Fountainhead
And i see myself getting hit by a fierce wave of tremor, and then these words echo in my mind - "... However, that's not why I'm doing it."
* In the whole of the 1 chapter of this story, Howard seemed like a person very close to being an anti altruist but not exactly that. As i read the story further, something strange hits my mind quite frequently, i cant explain the feeling, but from what i understand, Howard is an altruist in a very very different way. And he's selfish too, in a very very diffrent way. His defination of Altruism and Selfishness is so different! He's the most selfish altruist that i've seen in any of the novels or in person! (Nope, he doesnt care about fame or money - neither selfish nor an altruist in that way)
Shruti
"You don’t have to insult me. It’s not altruism. But I’ll tell you this: most people say they’re concerned with the suffering of others. I’m not. And yet there’s one thing I can’t understand. Most of them would not pass by if they saw a man bleeding in the road, mangled by a hit-and-run driver. And most of them would not turn their heads to look at Steven Mallory. But don’t they know that if suffering could be measured, there’s no suffering in Steven Mallory when he can’t do the work he wants to do, than in a whole field of victims mowed down by a tank? If one must relieve the pain of this world, isn’t Mallory the place to begin?...However, that’s not why I’m doing it." - The Fountainhead
And i see myself getting hit by a fierce wave of tremor, and then these words echo in my mind - "... However, that's not why I'm doing it."
* In the whole of the 1 chapter of this story, Howard seemed like a person very close to being an anti altruist but not exactly that. As i read the story further, something strange hits my mind quite frequently, i cant explain the feeling, but from what i understand, Howard is an altruist in a very very different way. And he's selfish too, in a very very diffrent way. His defination of Altruism and Selfishness is so different! He's the most selfish altruist that i've seen in any of the novels or in person! (Nope, he doesnt care about fame or money - neither selfish nor an altruist in that way)
Shruti
Friday, February 02, 2007
Blank?
Blank mail? Oh.. I hope not..
Nisha said that the mail (trip confirmation mail) which she recieved from me was blank! I want to go on that B5 trip.. :).. but i guess that not everyone got a blank mail.. cuz Hems said that she didnt! Anyways, whatever.. :D
Am i crapping? Hell yeah! Why? simply because i want to! :D
Nisha said that the mail (trip confirmation mail) which she recieved from me was blank! I want to go on that B5 trip.. :).. but i guess that not everyone got a blank mail.. cuz Hems said that she didnt! Anyways, whatever.. :D
Am i crapping? Hell yeah! Why? simply because i want to! :D
Monday, January 29, 2007
Google to the rescue!
My current status: 9 +times 23-1-14-20 to 6-1-12-12 in 12-15-22-5! [Btw, I want to go on a looong walk (just came back from a short walk..) wow.. its so beautiful outside today.. just had a whiff of fresh air and felt the cool air brush past me.. there is no need of a jacket today.. oh, its so beautiful outside that i want to sing at the top of my voice!]
Cant believe that i could get so hyper (reaction to the previous post).. seems that I have Multiple Personality Gift! hehe.
Shruti
Cant believe that i could get so hyper (reaction to the previous post).. seems that I have Multiple Personality Gift! hehe.
Shruti
Me v/s Me
Yes.. I am angry.. and anger turns you crazy.. so crazy that you search for any such solution that rids you of it.. so is blogging one such solution? I dont know.. and I dont care..
What happened? What's making you angry?
No.. its not 'What'.. its 'Who'. Who's making me angry? A person.. a person whose existence seems like a big burden to me.. a person who is driving me mad because the copious amounts of poisonous insanity that's filled within her, is getting injected into my mind.. and its even more annoying to face the fact that i cant distance myself from her.. why? because the she is me.. and as for 'what happened', hell happened..
Why? Why do you blame 'her' to be the cause of your anger? You still dint give an answer to the previous question.
See.. See.. this is exactly what I am doing these days, totally turning a deaf ear to what is being said by my friends, or in the class.. and making a fool of myself.. i've become so inattentive.. its unintentional.. but does anyone care? No! but that's not a problem, I am inattentive.. that's making me angry.. i am turning deaf (due to my capability of being inattentive), that's making me angry.. i cant explain things, my ideas to anyone.. that's making me angry.. i dont feel like (dont even feel the 'need' of) sharing my feelings with anyone (except for my family) as my friends do.. that's making me angry.. i feel unnatural.. that's making me angry.. my tone is getting monotonous.. that's making me angry.. i want to enjoy life, be afraid of comprees, smile and laugh.. but something's restraining me.. that's making me angry.. i.. i am making me angry.. i know that this is a stupid thing created in my head.. i know that it can stopped.. but im unable to do so.. that's making me angry.. i blame her because she's making me live in that self created delution..
Ohh! That's a heavy dose you gave. But every litle word, every little sentance seems to be interwoven to form a single problem. So, the problem is, not this interwoven problem, but maybe, as you said, the self created delution. You have wonderful people as your friends, why dont you try being at ease with them? Chill down a bit! Breathe easy! Talk to them, listen to them carefully. Maybe that'll help.
So, you think that i dont want to do that? I love my friends! I love everyone i know and i love to listen to them. I never had this problem before.. yea, they're really wonderful.. and its fun listening to them.. its not like i completely go deaf.. its just that i feel that maybe i dun give a proper response.. i feel like im growing cold.. and i dont want that to happen.. maybe im over-reacting and hence over-exaggerating.. maybe..
Ahaan! Good to see that your temper is reducing. Did you realise this - you sorted out your problem! Maybe its a temporary feeling that'll pass.
[Smiling] yeah maybe! Thanks for listening. I'll go now and try completing 'The Fountainhead'.
Okay! Cyah! Hopefully i'll see you sharing happy moments also with me.
Yeah.. sure! Bye for now.
Shruti
What happened? What's making you angry?
No.. its not 'What'.. its 'Who'. Who's making me angry? A person.. a person whose existence seems like a big burden to me.. a person who is driving me mad because the copious amounts of poisonous insanity that's filled within her, is getting injected into my mind.. and its even more annoying to face the fact that i cant distance myself from her.. why? because the she is me.. and as for 'what happened', hell happened..
Why? Why do you blame 'her' to be the cause of your anger? You still dint give an answer to the previous question.
See.. See.. this is exactly what I am doing these days, totally turning a deaf ear to what is being said by my friends, or in the class.. and making a fool of myself.. i've become so inattentive.. its unintentional.. but does anyone care? No! but that's not a problem, I am inattentive.. that's making me angry.. i am turning deaf (due to my capability of being inattentive), that's making me angry.. i cant explain things, my ideas to anyone.. that's making me angry.. i dont feel like (dont even feel the 'need' of) sharing my feelings with anyone (except for my family) as my friends do.. that's making me angry.. i feel unnatural.. that's making me angry.. my tone is getting monotonous.. that's making me angry.. i want to enjoy life, be afraid of comprees, smile and laugh.. but something's restraining me.. that's making me angry.. i.. i am making me angry.. i know that this is a stupid thing created in my head.. i know that it can stopped.. but im unable to do so.. that's making me angry.. i blame her because she's making me live in that self created delution..
Ohh! That's a heavy dose you gave. But every litle word, every little sentance seems to be interwoven to form a single problem. So, the problem is, not this interwoven problem, but maybe, as you said, the self created delution. You have wonderful people as your friends, why dont you try being at ease with them? Chill down a bit! Breathe easy! Talk to them, listen to them carefully. Maybe that'll help.
So, you think that i dont want to do that? I love my friends! I love everyone i know and i love to listen to them. I never had this problem before.. yea, they're really wonderful.. and its fun listening to them.. its not like i completely go deaf.. its just that i feel that maybe i dun give a proper response.. i feel like im growing cold.. and i dont want that to happen.. maybe im over-reacting and hence over-exaggerating.. maybe..
Ahaan! Good to see that your temper is reducing. Did you realise this - you sorted out your problem! Maybe its a temporary feeling that'll pass.
[Smiling] yeah maybe! Thanks for listening. I'll go now and try completing 'The Fountainhead'.
Okay! Cyah! Hopefully i'll see you sharing happy moments also with me.
Yeah.. sure! Bye for now.
Shruti
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